Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Imagination and Reality


NOTE: The fact that there are three Totoros standing next to the quote 
does not make the quote true.

***

In the end, people, you've got to face reality. I know, I know, I hate this as much as any of you. I spend a lot of time reading and writing, partly because I love it, but also because I just have to get away from the real world sometimes. I'm sure you feel the same way sometimes, and I can't say that I blame you. The real world is scary. Things are out of our out control. Days are often humdrum, occasionally blue, and sometimes even downright gruesome. Getting away from it all, even for a while, can be really, well, nice. In the stories I love, even the sad endings are beautifully written. But  it's not like that in real life.

Or is it?

Look around, guys. Who's in control here? The One who works all things together for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. Our lives aren't orchestrated by some tacky director whose goal is to make a bestseller that will make gobs of people happy. Look closely: Romans 8:28 doesn't say that God works all things together for the happiness of those who love Him. Happiness is an unstable thing. It changes. That song that made you feel so happy yesterday just might not work today. Good, however, is different. Good is constant. It isn't changed by how you happen to be feeling. On days when I'm feeling too miserable to get out of bed, Good whispers in my ear truths so pure and strong that they pull even me to my dragging feet. Good prevails.

God's ways are higher than our ways. Life may not always go the way I want it to, but that's okay. I'm glad it doesn't, actually. Gosh, if my life always went the way I wanted it to, I'd be in deep trouble right now. God's plan for my life is so much better than anything I can imagine. 

And speaking of imagining, that brings me back to the quote at the top of the page: I'm not saying that imagination is inherently bad! Don't get me wrong on that. Imagination is a God-given thing. Remember that amazing plan that God has for you? Your imagination is one of the gifts He gave you that will help you along the way. So don't use imagination to escape this world; use it to make this world even better. 

Come back to the real world, but bring imagination with you: make it become reality. Share your amazing life with us. And never forget to give God the glory. 


Thursday, June 18, 2015

I Killed A Spider


So I Googled images of sadness and this is one of the first ones that popped up and I think it also implies remorse as well, remorse and sadness, and that's how I feel so yes that seems like a good way to start this post guys I killed a spider. 

Here is my rule about killing spiders: if they are in the house, kill them. I think of it as a good excercize for my flabby Courage Muscle, and moreover I don't want our house to be overrun by spiders. They bite, or so I've heard. Here is my other rule about killing spiders: if they are outside, leave them alone. They make pretty webs, and they kill mosquitos and flies and things. In short I respect spiders, I admire them, I fear them, and unless they are in the house I will let them live a long productive bug-catching life.

Except this one. He's on the smallish side of tiny and he's one of those spiders that will be holding perfectly still one second and then suddenly will be an inch to the right the next. You know, the teleporting kind. They give me the creeps. And he's sitting staring at me. While I'm trying to study. I manage to kind of steer him away to the far end of the table and continue studying. Sitting in the chair with my knees up, with my book on my knees. I happen to glance to the side and THE SPIDER IS ON MY KNEE STARING AT ME. I'm like "WOULD! YOU! GET! OFF!" and I swat him to the ground, where he sits, none the worse for his fall, staring at me. I stare at him, struggling with my other rule about killing spiders: if they are outside, leave them alone. True, I had not assumed there would ever be a spider in Oregon that would not leave ME alone. But still, it's not like this guy is actually going to HURT me, right? I know what I have to do. I pick up my text book, hold it over the spider, and drop it on him. Remarkably, it kills him.

I lift up my book and stare at the remains of Spider. I am shocked and apalled by what I have done. I still am. My sudden hatred, violent enough to end a small life. The world has one less life than it did before. Actually several more lives probably began at the exact moment of his death. Not to mention several other lives probably ended at that exact same moment, too. I wonder, is there like a constantly moving clicker keeping track of lives going in and out of existence? Like, how many things are alive right now? Not counting plants, though. Just in kingdom Animalia. Which includes humans. I know it offends some Christians when I inform them they are mammals, they're like "WE DID NOT EVOLVE FROM MONKEYS," and I'm like "Yesssss but we ARE primates and also mammals and also ANIMALS." I mean out of the three categories of animal, vegetable, and mineral, which one are WE in? OBVIOUSLY animal. I killed an animal, guys. An animal that had, in all probability, no intent to harm me ... well, actually, I doubt that part. But anyway I feel bad about it. 

I had written this far when a friend asked "Why are you writing this? What is your point? You are SUCH a girl." What IS my point? I don't know. I just feel like I had to get this off my chest. So, yeah, I killed a spider today. And I feel bad about it. Thanks for reading. 

Monday, June 15, 2015

The Princess and the Blacksmith: Chapter the First

Hullo everyone. This is the first of a series of stories I've been wanting to write, starring my friend Cori as the Blacksmith and myself as Princess Mallorie. No cameo appearances in this one, but I'd like to incorporate our mutual friends into later installments. A certain seamstress and a certain milkmaid are just about bound to appear in the stories. So keep your eye out for them!

***

Once upon a time, in a beautiful kingdom half-way between the mountains and the sea, there lived a princess and a blacksmith, and they were the best of friends. They lived side by side in a gray stone tower and a small cottage thatched with straw. The princess lived in the cottage, and the blacksmith lived in the tower, instead of the other way around as you might expect. The blacksmith's name was Capitola, and the princess was called Mallorie.

The two had many adventures together: whether it was because they were the sort who went looking for adventures or because adventures came looking for them, it was hard to say. Some of these adventures were the kind that made way for others, and the one with the Gryphon was such a one. It began like this.

“Mallorie,” said Capitola to Mallorie one day, coming restlessly into Mallorie's cabin, “I want a flying mount.”

“So do I,” said Mallorie, after blinking in surprise. “I'm sick to death of being invited to balls and dances and festivals and not being able to make it in time because they're so ridiculously far away. In fact Collin just came by today talking about a dance at the Red Palace, and I was busy being miserable because it's in a week's time and there was no way under the sun that we were going to make it in time! Oh, Cap, maybe we could find a couple of mounts in the next few days! You think?”

Cap grimmaced. “I think it's going to take a lot longer than that. I've been looking for one for a while. But I can't find one to suit me.”

“Well, what do you want?”

“I'm not sure,” said Cap. “Something fast. Something strong.”

The most obvious choice was a dragon. But, as Mallorie said knowledgeably after talking to one person in the market that afternoon, domesticated dragons were expensive and impractical.

“They have weak stomachs,” she explained, as she chopped up carrots for a stew. “They have to have the choicest meats: veal, lamb, fawn. And a good deal of it, too. Only lords and kings can afford to keep them.”

“Really,” said Cap. She picked up a large carrot and took a loud bite of it.

“Yes. Of course, wild dragons aren't like that. They can eat ANYthing. But naturally you don't want a wild dragon. It'd eat you alive as soon as look at you.”

“Right,” said Cap, sighing.

“Right. So, dragons are not an option. How about a pegasus? They're fast and strong.”

“Yeah,” said Cap. “I guess.” Then, abruptly she said, “I was thinking a Gryphon.”

Mallorie's brown eyes eyes widened. She clapped her hands together with delight, inadvertently dropping her knife. It clattered to the floor, missing her bare toes by an inch. “Oh, Cap, that's perfect!” she exclaimed. “I can totally see you riding a gryphon. Oh, yes! I love this. Have you looked at any?”

“That's just it,” said Cap. She swung herself onto the table and shook her springy dark hair back from her eyes. “I've looked at all the gryphons that the keepers bring into town, but I can't find any to suit me. They're all too sickly or too expensive or too small or too nervous or just plain mean.”

“Hmm,” said Mallorie. She picked up the knife and resumed cutting carrots. “Well, I'm sure you'll find one soon! We'll just have to keep looking.”

But weeks went by, and still Cap couldn't find a gryphon she liked. Mallorie became rather fond a large tawny specimen that was in the market one day, but he was too sweet for Cap's taste. Then, one day, out of the blue – Foyle appeared.

He stood in the middle of their yard, the wind ruffling his dull black feathers, looking about himself with hooded golden eyes. Cap stood a little to one side, watching him. Her brown eyes sparkled, and a grin was fixed on her face.

The graying woman holding his tether looked at him too, talking to Cap in a dull sort of way.

“He ain't much to look at now, I'll allow. I've no time to look after him. That's why I've got to let him go. But he's a good 'un, for all that. Good, fast flyer, pleasant-tempered. A little skittish, but then, it don't hurt an animal to be a little cautious.”

“He's got some sores on his legs,” said Mallorie. “Where did he get those?”

“From rubbing against the walls of his stable, I'd expect,” said the woman. Mallorie looked at her quickly. “He gets bored in his stable,” the lady explained. “I haven't had time to ride him. Accounts for him being a little fat as well.”

“Could I ride him now?” asked Cap.

“You can if you've a mind to. Don't know how he'll take to you though.”

Cap took a step closer to the Gryphon. Slowly, she raised her hand. She scratched the Gryphon's back, right where the lion's tail joined it. The tail flicked back and forth in appreciation. Cap drew in a breath, then mounted him.

With a dusty clapping of wings, the Gryphon launched into the air. “Oh, Cap, be careful!” Mallorie shouted after them, dancing about on the ground. With powerful strokes of its wings, the Grypon pulled itself into the air, higher and higher, till they were almost out of sight from the two people on the ground. Mallorie shaded her eyes and watched the circling speck, beaming. The woman squinted up at them, too, looking rather wistful.

“He was my boy's bird,” she said, half to herself, half to Mallorie. “Used to ride him every day, he did. Flew all around the country on him. But after Robin died, there's been nobody to care for the him.”

Mallorie looked down at her, surprise and sympathy in her face. “Oh – I'm sorry. When did he die?”

“Not over a year ago.”

Presently, the gryphon folded its wings against its body, and he and Cap came plummeting back towards the ground. Just before impact, the gryphon snapped its wings wide and brought its legs forward for impact. He ran a few steps on the ground, then came to an uneven halt, ruffling its feathers and clawing at the trurf with its lion hind legs.

Breathless and beaming, Cap dismounted.

“He's great,” she said, simply. “How much do you want for him?”

The woman hesitated. “Well, I don't know what people are selling gryphons for these days. What do you say to forty guilders?”

It was a little high for a gryphon, and Mallorie expected Cap to start haggling. But to her surprise, Cap replied, “All right. I'll take him.”

“Well, that's that then,” said the woman. She looked at Foyle despondently. “I'll need him tonight, to carry my supplies back from market. But I'll send a boy up with him tomorrow. You can send the money back with him. Is that all right?”

“Sure,” said Cap. She scratched Foyle behind one of his ear tufts. “See you soon, Foyle.”

The lady took hold of his tether again and led him down the lane towards the road. When she started down the road, Mallorie called after her in surprise. “Oy. Aren't you going to ride him to market?”

“Nay, nay,” the woman called back good-naturedly. “I don't like flying. Makes me queasy!”

Cap was almost too excited to sleep that night. 

“Oh, Mallorie, he's great,” she said. “Just exactly what I wanted. He follows directions and he's a good strong flyer. I can't wait to ride him again tomorrow.”

But when the boy came the next day, he did not have the gryphon. Instead, he had a message from the owner:


“My mistress says she has decided not to sell him after all. She says she doesn't want to part with a creature that belonged to her son.”  





Saturday, June 6, 2015

When School Assignments Are Actually Fun

Hullo people. Want to see a poem I wrote for school? Ya you do. Here it is.


... actually, first, here's the Scripture that inspired the poem:


Jeremiah 17:7-8: “But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, 
whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water 
that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; 
its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought 
and never fails to bear fruit.


And here's the poem.


My dear, it hurts to see you here,
Growing in the plain,
So far from any river clear,
Whose flood might you sustain.

Sweet tree, you reach your branches
Ever upwards towards the sun,
But slim indeed your chances
Far from where the rivers run.

A mile or so away from you
Run waters pure and sweet,
Glass-clear with Truth that once you knew
When they ran by your feet.

Without Truth you cannot stand,
You will wither, you will die:
Let me take you from the sand
And bring you to the water's side.



Thursday, June 4, 2015

The Creek



There's a meaning, murmured matter,
In the water's silver chatter.
There's a word
That's softly heard;
In the river, sonnets flow.

Once I knew what it was saying
While in waving rushes playing
But whatever
It said ever
I've forgotten long ago.







Wednesday, June 3, 2015

Preservation


"Here one minute and gone the next
 and never coming back." ~ Tom Stoppard

Yes, yes, an absence:
someone failing to appear, ever again.

If that is death --
if that is how we understand it,
percieve it,

if death is an absence
and I never see you again --

why then,
you are dead,
at least, so far as I am concerned. 

No! my heart shouts, I will not have it! I must keep you alive,
in my mind if in no other way.

Details, details, details! I root through my memory for details,
details that will save you from indistinction
and distinguish you from the blurry crowds
once pristine in my mind.
A lanyard, shorts, basketball shoes;
pretzel sticks, a sofa.

There - it all comes back, for a moment.
I can hear your voice if I listen,
I see your face in motion,
at least for now.
Will it someday lose mobility
and become a photo like the rest?
They were once a reel of films; now they are just a yearbook,
a yearbook of voiceless photos that do not do them justice.

It's not that I will be lonely!
I know I will make new friends.
But for now my heart rails against them,
the vibrant, laughing newcomers
who will rise to take your place. 
I know I will come to love them,
as I love you
but oh
I am so tired of letting go
and I'd rather hold on to you forever.



Tuesday, June 2, 2015

You Should Be More Like Aragorn


Yes. You should have straggly hair and and an unkempt beard and you should stop for meals but twice a day. Well, not really. I suppose the beard thing isn't even an option for some of you. But seriously though ...

I lived in Middle Earth for about, oh, say, three years, and I'm thinking I should probably move back again. The friends I made there were some of the best role models I've ever had. Aragorn, or Strider, was the best of all. Healer, hunter, warrior, tracker, negotiator, not to mention king: this guy's resume makes mine look like Waldo's (I think all he ever does is stand around).


When analyzing literature, you generally find three different types of conflict: Man vs. man, man vs. nature, and man vs. self. (Of course, in LOTR the man vs. man category broadens a bit. It's more like man vs. man or orc or ring wraith or cave troll or witch king or wizard or perhaps even a rogue hobbit who's lost all sense of morality.) Aragorn faced each of these three types of conflict, and he triumphed in every case. Orcs, blizards, and tempations could not beat him down. He rose above all to drive evil from the land and to resist the evil within himself. And when he became king, he made Middle Earth happy and wholesome for all who did right by each other. 

What struck me most about Aragorn was his patience. I can't remember Aragorn ever being petty. I don't even seem to recall him ever once snapping out in irritability. He was so above all that. In all circumstances, he remained collected, brave, competent, gracious, selfless. His bearing was always that of a king, even before he came to the throne. 

As a Christian, I am an adopted child of God, a child of the King. Royalty, if you will. But I certainly don't always act like it. I just do what I want in the moment, imagining that it is better to FEEL good than to BE good. Reading about Aragorn, however, reminds me that BEING good might actually feel better in the end. 

So, how about it, kids? Let's try to be more like Aragorn. Starting with the straggly beard.



Monday, June 1, 2015

Dandelions

My neighbors work for hours
Pulling yellow weeds from lawns,
But to me they're only flowers
So I don't really want mine gone.
Why do all the others hate them?
I don't think I'll ever know,
But if you'll help me reinstate them
We'll watch dandelions grow.